Some of you may not like what I'm about to write but I feel compelled to write about it. So, just bare with me and keep an open mind. Ya know, I read the Bible and I research things in it and I re-read it and I try to make sense out of it. It actually DOES make sense. I was talking with a friend earlier today and she was telling about a friend she has who gets plastic surgery done. Her friend has no medical conditions, nothing that needed cosmetic repair; her friend just does it to "look better". I looked in the Bible and nowhere did it say Eve went and had plastic surgery to make herself look better. Nowhere does it state that we as humans need to engage in such a horrific act.
Seriously, is it that you are so insecure of yourself you feel compelled to go under the knife? Or even get a needle stuck in your forehead a couple of times to make yourself look better? I don't understand why people do this to themselves. If it is because you need it for cosmetic reasons (because you became disfigured from an accident or etc...) I get that and I understand that. But, when you are perfectly healthy and you're aging and you want to look younger..WHY? What is it about growing older you're afraid of? Have you not researched what extensive cosmetic surgery can do to you? Why are you afraid to look at yourself in the mirror each day and face the real YOU?
I have never had plastic surgery done and I pray I will never need it because of circumstances beyond my control. You know in the Bible it says our body is a Temple. God, did not say to make it better under false pretenses. My friends, friend has had a nose job, a boob job, botox and who knows what else is diminishing her own Temple created by God. All I'm saying is; be happy who you are, from the inside out. How can you be happy with your outsides if it something you did not create? The botox is POISON and yet you feel the need to inject it into your forehead? And... you choose to manipulate the work of God?
If God were to come see you today...would he recognize you...or would he ask "Who Are You Anyway?"
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Friday, September 24, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
I Think I Know You - You're ME!
A lot of times, I get emails from readers asking for advice on certain things going on in their lives. I enjoy all the emails I get so thanks for sending them! Recently, I received an email from a lady named "Diane". I'll call her "Diane" for the sake of my blog and her story. This was her email to me:
Sept 6, 2010
Dear Nikki,
You don't know me, but I think I know who you are...you're ME! I read your blog every day and when I read it, I feel like you're living MY life. You write about things that seem to happen in my life. I don't know how you do it, but I feel like you're talking right to me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a stalker (lol) but I really love reading your blogs. You are very insightful and you speak from your heart, something that is not easy for me to do. I have a question for you and you can feel free to post my question in your blog, maybe someone else is or has gone through what I have been going through. I need your help Nikki.
I'm 47 years old, a mother of 4 and I'm married to a man I really no longer find no enjoyment to be with. For the past 5 or 6 years, I've been depressed. Although I haven't been diagnosed with depression, I feel depressed all the time. You always seem to be upbeat and right on. My question is: how do you stay so upbeat and not let life get you down? How do you cope with things when you're depressed?
Thanks for your time,
advent Nikki Landry fan.
What a great email from "Diane". I was pleased to know that she offered her email to be published because depression is a very hard thing to go through life with. There's a difference between being sad and being depressed. Depression not only affects your mind, spirit and soul but it also affects your health. It's important to seek medical help with depression. I'm not sure of the severity of her depression but she mentions it's been for years. I would suggest Diane seek medical help. I would ask her to see a Psychologist for help. Many times people think seeing a Psychologist (or Shrinks for the slang term) is a bad thing to do. My question is Why? It's actually the "In" thing to do. Ask any celebrity they all have shrinks. I even have one. Who cares if I have to pay someone to listen to my problems and help me through them? At least SOMEONE is listening to me, and someone who can show me how to get better at being the person I was meant to be.
Diane also asked how do I stay so upbeat all the time? Well, keep in mind I'm an entertainer so part of my job is be "upbeat" and entertaining. When I re-focus my energy onto things that are good; I get happy. When I take my mind off of "me" I feel better. So, if you're having a hard time being happy, then take your mind off yourself, go do something NICE for someone else. Have you ever wondered when you go to the doctor because you're sick you almost always feel better as soon as you walk into the hospital? Why? because you're mind is on something else other than YOU. So, go get happy, do something for someone else for a change. Stop thinking only about yourself, go volunteer somewhere...trust me there are people out there who could use your help.
Thanks to Diane for her email. If you'd like to email me with a question please do so in the leave a comment box. All comments come to my personal email before they get approved to be shown in the comments box.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Sept 6, 2010
Dear Nikki,
You don't know me, but I think I know who you are...you're ME! I read your blog every day and when I read it, I feel like you're living MY life. You write about things that seem to happen in my life. I don't know how you do it, but I feel like you're talking right to me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a stalker (lol) but I really love reading your blogs. You are very insightful and you speak from your heart, something that is not easy for me to do. I have a question for you and you can feel free to post my question in your blog, maybe someone else is or has gone through what I have been going through. I need your help Nikki.
I'm 47 years old, a mother of 4 and I'm married to a man I really no longer find no enjoyment to be with. For the past 5 or 6 years, I've been depressed. Although I haven't been diagnosed with depression, I feel depressed all the time. You always seem to be upbeat and right on. My question is: how do you stay so upbeat and not let life get you down? How do you cope with things when you're depressed?
Thanks for your time,
advent Nikki Landry fan.
What a great email from "Diane". I was pleased to know that she offered her email to be published because depression is a very hard thing to go through life with. There's a difference between being sad and being depressed. Depression not only affects your mind, spirit and soul but it also affects your health. It's important to seek medical help with depression. I'm not sure of the severity of her depression but she mentions it's been for years. I would suggest Diane seek medical help. I would ask her to see a Psychologist for help. Many times people think seeing a Psychologist (or Shrinks for the slang term) is a bad thing to do. My question is Why? It's actually the "In" thing to do. Ask any celebrity they all have shrinks. I even have one. Who cares if I have to pay someone to listen to my problems and help me through them? At least SOMEONE is listening to me, and someone who can show me how to get better at being the person I was meant to be.
Diane also asked how do I stay so upbeat all the time? Well, keep in mind I'm an entertainer so part of my job is be "upbeat" and entertaining. When I re-focus my energy onto things that are good; I get happy. When I take my mind off of "me" I feel better. So, if you're having a hard time being happy, then take your mind off yourself, go do something NICE for someone else. Have you ever wondered when you go to the doctor because you're sick you almost always feel better as soon as you walk into the hospital? Why? because you're mind is on something else other than YOU. So, go get happy, do something for someone else for a change. Stop thinking only about yourself, go volunteer somewhere...trust me there are people out there who could use your help.
Thanks to Diane for her email. If you'd like to email me with a question please do so in the leave a comment box. All comments come to my personal email before they get approved to be shown in the comments box.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
"About Face"- If Tomorrow Never Comes...Then What?
September 1, 2010
The title of this blog is often used as a military preparatory command. For my blog purpose I'll use it in a different way. When was the last time you looked at someones face? I mean really looked at them to see what they are feeling inside. Many times we "look" at people and that's all we do, we just "look". Have you ever taken out the time to just look at someone and wonder "are they happy, are they sad, did they have a bad day, are they hurting, are they confused, do they feel pain," Not too many people will show how they feel on the outside. A lot of people are very good at hiding their emotions. Everything looks great to other people who look at them, when in fact...they could really use a friend.
I have a girlfriend who is an expert on hiding her feelings when I look at her. To look at her, you'd think her life was just so perfect. She wears the nicest clothes, her make up is southern perfect, she smells very nice, she walks with pride, and she drives an expensive car. Sure all these things are material things, but that's what she's about. On the outside, she always has to look like she's the best at everything she does. I never asked her any of this because, well, frankly I can see right through her, so why bring it up? I know that a few years ago her husband cheated on her and yet, to this day she doesn't talk about it. It's almost as if nothing happened. I asked her why she never talks about it and she said with a smile of course..."I know I'm the best thing he has, so what he did was a mistake, and I've moved on from it, he'll never be able to find someone to replace me." That's what she told me...with confidence.
Two weeks ago, he left her. She called me and she was crying, and I wanted so much to look at her face to see if she really believed what just happened to her. I asked her why he left her and she said she didn't know. Then I asked her why did he tell you he left you? Then, there was silence on the phone. "Abbey?" I asked. "Are you there?" She whispers in tears to me, "yeah, I'm here". I said "What's the matter, why are you crying?" She begins to tell me her story.
"Nikki, you just don't understand, even if I told you, you wouldn't understand." I said "Try me." So, she begins her story. "Dean told me the reason why he left me was because I showed no emotion and when I did it was usually bitter." She continues "Am I bitter person, Nikki?" I answer her "Are you?" she replies "I don't think so, but Dean seems to think so." I ask "What have you done nice for him lately?" She 'laughs a little in between tears, "What haven't I done nice for him? I clean the house, I cook, I do the laundry, I work, I make sure the dogs are fed, I even walk the dogs when he can't, I'm always doing something for him and it seems like I never do anything for me. I always put him first..always. How does that make me without emotion, Nikki?"
"Abbey, that sounds all very nice and well, really it does. My question to you Abbey is When was the last time you told Dean you appreciated him, or that by having him in your life means everything to you?" Again, I heard silence on the other end and then Abbey chimes in. "He knows that stuff, I married him for crying out loud. He knows I love him and I appreciate him." I interrupt her "Really?, he does?" Do you appreciate me as a friend Abbey? I ask her. "Of course I do Nikki, you're my best friend." I get silent for a moment and I could hear it in her silence, she realized she never told me she appreciated me as a friend. I tell her, "well..you've never told me that you do, and when I tell you I appreciate you as a friend you just say thank you." She replies with tears in her eyes "I'm so sorry...I DO appreciate you." Then I whisper to her..."Thank you, now go tell Dean that you appreciate HIM too, and look at his face, see that he's hurting and let him look at yours and let him see you are hurting...it's what you're feeling. Let him feel your hurt, and you feel his. Together you will bond, it's very easy Abbey...it's About Face."
When you love someone, let them know. Today is all we have and tomorrow is a gift. Here is a video that I included to give you a reminder of the importance of communication.
If tomorrow never comes...then what?
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
The title of this blog is often used as a military preparatory command. For my blog purpose I'll use it in a different way. When was the last time you looked at someones face? I mean really looked at them to see what they are feeling inside. Many times we "look" at people and that's all we do, we just "look". Have you ever taken out the time to just look at someone and wonder "are they happy, are they sad, did they have a bad day, are they hurting, are they confused, do they feel pain," Not too many people will show how they feel on the outside. A lot of people are very good at hiding their emotions. Everything looks great to other people who look at them, when in fact...they could really use a friend.
I have a girlfriend who is an expert on hiding her feelings when I look at her. To look at her, you'd think her life was just so perfect. She wears the nicest clothes, her make up is southern perfect, she smells very nice, she walks with pride, and she drives an expensive car. Sure all these things are material things, but that's what she's about. On the outside, she always has to look like she's the best at everything she does. I never asked her any of this because, well, frankly I can see right through her, so why bring it up? I know that a few years ago her husband cheated on her and yet, to this day she doesn't talk about it. It's almost as if nothing happened. I asked her why she never talks about it and she said with a smile of course..."I know I'm the best thing he has, so what he did was a mistake, and I've moved on from it, he'll never be able to find someone to replace me." That's what she told me...with confidence.
Two weeks ago, he left her. She called me and she was crying, and I wanted so much to look at her face to see if she really believed what just happened to her. I asked her why he left her and she said she didn't know. Then I asked her why did he tell you he left you? Then, there was silence on the phone. "Abbey?" I asked. "Are you there?" She whispers in tears to me, "yeah, I'm here". I said "What's the matter, why are you crying?" She begins to tell me her story.
"Nikki, you just don't understand, even if I told you, you wouldn't understand." I said "Try me." So, she begins her story. "Dean told me the reason why he left me was because I showed no emotion and when I did it was usually bitter." She continues "Am I bitter person, Nikki?" I answer her "Are you?" she replies "I don't think so, but Dean seems to think so." I ask "What have you done nice for him lately?" She 'laughs a little in between tears, "What haven't I done nice for him? I clean the house, I cook, I do the laundry, I work, I make sure the dogs are fed, I even walk the dogs when he can't, I'm always doing something for him and it seems like I never do anything for me. I always put him first..always. How does that make me without emotion, Nikki?"
"Abbey, that sounds all very nice and well, really it does. My question to you Abbey is When was the last time you told Dean you appreciated him, or that by having him in your life means everything to you?" Again, I heard silence on the other end and then Abbey chimes in. "He knows that stuff, I married him for crying out loud. He knows I love him and I appreciate him." I interrupt her "Really?, he does?" Do you appreciate me as a friend Abbey? I ask her. "Of course I do Nikki, you're my best friend." I get silent for a moment and I could hear it in her silence, she realized she never told me she appreciated me as a friend. I tell her, "well..you've never told me that you do, and when I tell you I appreciate you as a friend you just say thank you." She replies with tears in her eyes "I'm so sorry...I DO appreciate you." Then I whisper to her..."Thank you, now go tell Dean that you appreciate HIM too, and look at his face, see that he's hurting and let him look at yours and let him see you are hurting...it's what you're feeling. Let him feel your hurt, and you feel his. Together you will bond, it's very easy Abbey...it's About Face."
When you love someone, let them know. Today is all we have and tomorrow is a gift. Here is a video that I included to give you a reminder of the importance of communication.
If tomorrow never comes...then what?
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Evolving
Even though I am no longer employed, I feel at peace with myself. So many changes happening in my life now. Sometimes, people do not welcome change. This always seemed to amaze me. If we did not welcome change, we wouldn't be where we are today in life. You couldn't not have gotten where you are today without change...it's called "evolving". I'm about to enter another phase of my life, one of those changes include a move. It looks like I will be taking a job out of state. Although, scary and uncertain, I welcome the change. I'll be "evolving". To me, if you're not evolving, you're not growing. I'm not saying you have to move like to me to evolve, but you must grow and make yourself better.
I have a friend who's married and she and her husband both are thinking about seeing a counselor to save their marriage. After talking with both of them come to find out, basically what they're missing is trust and communication. So, "if I can't trust you, I can't communicate with you". I admire people who go to counseling, it shows you care, that you care about the other person and most importantly you care about saving your marriage. I think it's one of the best things you can do to save your marriage. My girlfriend tells me she doesn't want to see the therapist. She said they can't tell her anything she doesn't already know about herself. You mean to tell me someone with a PhD who is specifically trained in counseling can not help YOU? That YOU know better? That they won't tell YOU anything about yourself YOU don't already know? Really? Then why is your marriage in trouble? Even if you think it's the other persons problem and not your own, how you handle that person and situation....becomes YOUR problem. I suggested a therapist to her.
After we hung up, the other day I got to thinking about how selfish she is. I remember her telling me how much she loved her husband in the beginning. How great they got along, and when they had a child well...then life was perfect! Now, she doesn't trust him. I have to ask... is it you don't trust his intentions with someone else, or that you don't trust he'll be with you to the end. Is it, you don't trust him because you think he'll leave YOU "a lone" and with nothing? Even though he may find happiness elsewhere? If you love someone, you want them to be happy...even if it means not with YOU.
If you can provide happiness together, great then stay together...FIND THAT HAPPINESS TOGETHER. If you can not do it together, then for the love if Eve, let them be happy elsewhere and YOU be happy.
Once you do either one of these...then you will be "Evolving". It's time to Move On. Watch this video and think about what I wrote. Find your happiness...evolve.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
I have a friend who's married and she and her husband both are thinking about seeing a counselor to save their marriage. After talking with both of them come to find out, basically what they're missing is trust and communication. So, "if I can't trust you, I can't communicate with you". I admire people who go to counseling, it shows you care, that you care about the other person and most importantly you care about saving your marriage. I think it's one of the best things you can do to save your marriage. My girlfriend tells me she doesn't want to see the therapist. She said they can't tell her anything she doesn't already know about herself. You mean to tell me someone with a PhD who is specifically trained in counseling can not help YOU? That YOU know better? That they won't tell YOU anything about yourself YOU don't already know? Really? Then why is your marriage in trouble? Even if you think it's the other persons problem and not your own, how you handle that person and situation....becomes YOUR problem. I suggested a therapist to her.
After we hung up, the other day I got to thinking about how selfish she is. I remember her telling me how much she loved her husband in the beginning. How great they got along, and when they had a child well...then life was perfect! Now, she doesn't trust him. I have to ask... is it you don't trust his intentions with someone else, or that you don't trust he'll be with you to the end. Is it, you don't trust him because you think he'll leave YOU "a lone" and with nothing? Even though he may find happiness elsewhere? If you love someone, you want them to be happy...even if it means not with YOU.
If you can provide happiness together, great then stay together...FIND THAT HAPPINESS TOGETHER. If you can not do it together, then for the love if Eve, let them be happy elsewhere and YOU be happy.
Once you do either one of these...then you will be "Evolving". It's time to Move On. Watch this video and think about what I wrote. Find your happiness...evolve.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
When You No Longer Belong
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Enjoy the ride!
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
What are YOU Willing To Do To Be Happy?
There comes a time in our lives where we have to stop keeping score. When you're in love or a marriage (and yes, I've had both) you have to stop keeping score. We all have fights, we all love, we all hate, we all mistrust and yes, sometimes we cheat. I'm in my Psychology class for my Master's Degree and I'm learning a lot. One day I'm going to open my own practice and help couples who suffer from the inabaility to get along. Is divorce you're only means to an end? No. Can it be? Sure. The first thing you have to stop doing is keeping score. Ask yourself, "is it more important for me to be right or to find resolution?" Be honest with yourself.
There was a time in my life when I dated a man for 6 years who had 3 kids who lived with us. I was mom at the age of 25 with 3 kids, a beautiful home and great job and a man I thought I loved. I say "thought" I loved because truth be known, I didn't love him as much as I thought. I think what I loved was the "idea" of him. The idea of having a perfect family was great for me, since I didn't have that growing up I was bound to find it with someone and that someone I thought was him. Later on in the relationship things started changing for us. I felt guilt, (that I wasn't good enough for him), I felt remorse (that I was a glorified babysitter for him and his kids) and I also felt mistrust. The reason I felt mistrust was becuase I WANTED to feel that. I wanted to find a way to leave him so I was looking for a reason. If I could not trust him than that would validate my feelings to leave. I had no one else to blame but HIM.
I'd mentally keep score on our fights who won what, who lost which one and then I stopped keeping score and I found myself finding me again. I focused on what made ME happy, and no this wasn't selfish, this was survival. I've survived, he's survived, the kids all survived and everyone lives happily ever after. Happiness is what we make of it, what we bring other people, what we bring oursleves. Life is too short NOT to be happy, seriously..can you honestly say if you were on your death bead today "I lived a happy fulfilling life?" Not too many people can and I venture to bet you can't either or else you'd be out doing something that makes you happy instead of reading what I'm writing about. I only write for two reasons, one to make you happy (because you enjoy them) and two for me, (because it gives me a sense of release).
What are YOU willing to do to be Happy?
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
There was a time in my life when I dated a man for 6 years who had 3 kids who lived with us. I was mom at the age of 25 with 3 kids, a beautiful home and great job and a man I thought I loved. I say "thought" I loved because truth be known, I didn't love him as much as I thought. I think what I loved was the "idea" of him. The idea of having a perfect family was great for me, since I didn't have that growing up I was bound to find it with someone and that someone I thought was him. Later on in the relationship things started changing for us. I felt guilt, (that I wasn't good enough for him), I felt remorse (that I was a glorified babysitter for him and his kids) and I also felt mistrust. The reason I felt mistrust was becuase I WANTED to feel that. I wanted to find a way to leave him so I was looking for a reason. If I could not trust him than that would validate my feelings to leave. I had no one else to blame but HIM.
I'd mentally keep score on our fights who won what, who lost which one and then I stopped keeping score and I found myself finding me again. I focused on what made ME happy, and no this wasn't selfish, this was survival. I've survived, he's survived, the kids all survived and everyone lives happily ever after. Happiness is what we make of it, what we bring other people, what we bring oursleves. Life is too short NOT to be happy, seriously..can you honestly say if you were on your death bead today "I lived a happy fulfilling life?" Not too many people can and I venture to bet you can't either or else you'd be out doing something that makes you happy instead of reading what I'm writing about. I only write for two reasons, one to make you happy (because you enjoy them) and two for me, (because it gives me a sense of release).
What are YOU willing to do to be Happy?
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Friday, July 2, 2010
When Change Doesn't Change
We've all heard it before in our relationships "I'll change" or "Give me a chance to change" or even "I'll prove it to you I've changed, just give me a chance." This always amazes me when I hear about couples who have a significant other that say things like this to them. Or, even when they themselves tell me they'll change for their partner. My answer is usually "Really?" IS it fair to expect your partner to change for you? I don't believe so. There are things we can modify like our lack of ability to take out the garbage. When it comes right down to who we are as a person, I don't believe it's a good idea we "change".
Why would we "change" anyway? Sure, we can grow and we can learn from our mistakes. That's part of growing up. But what is not part of growing up is having to prove yourself to your mate that you're a changed person. Why would I want the person I love to change? To me that makes no sense. If you have to change to be with me, then I don't want to be with you and visa versa.
People grow in different directions in life, some forward, some backwards and some ... well, they think they're growing but really they're not. They may "think" they're growing because something they've done shows maturity but within their hearts they are neutral. To me, that's not growing that's waiting until something else comes along to enlighten you.
I tried to change not too long ago. Although, I welcomed the change I now know it was temporary. Too bad too, because the person I was becoming was the same person I always wanted to be. Now, the change and the growing I'm doing is something I had a true benchmark for -- once ...but only once.
So, when change doesn't really change you need to ask yourself, "Why, would I want the other person to change?" If I don't love then for who they are wholeheartedly, then I shouldn't be with this person. That in itself lies the change.
Until Next Time,
Nikki
7/02/10
PS. feel free to leave me a comment as comments do not get posted automatically unless I approve them. Please let me know in your response if it's okay to post your reply.
Why would we "change" anyway? Sure, we can grow and we can learn from our mistakes. That's part of growing up. But what is not part of growing up is having to prove yourself to your mate that you're a changed person. Why would I want the person I love to change? To me that makes no sense. If you have to change to be with me, then I don't want to be with you and visa versa.
People grow in different directions in life, some forward, some backwards and some ... well, they think they're growing but really they're not. They may "think" they're growing because something they've done shows maturity but within their hearts they are neutral. To me, that's not growing that's waiting until something else comes along to enlighten you.
I tried to change not too long ago. Although, I welcomed the change I now know it was temporary. Too bad too, because the person I was becoming was the same person I always wanted to be. Now, the change and the growing I'm doing is something I had a true benchmark for -- once ...but only once.
So, when change doesn't really change you need to ask yourself, "Why, would I want the other person to change?" If I don't love then for who they are wholeheartedly, then I shouldn't be with this person. That in itself lies the change.
Until Next Time,
Nikki
7/02/10
PS. feel free to leave me a comment as comments do not get posted automatically unless I approve them. Please let me know in your response if it's okay to post your reply.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Wanna Chance?
June 30, 2010
I have a list of topics I want to discuss in my Blog. I'm not sure which one I want to start with so, Here's YOUR chance to tell ME what you'd like me to write about.
"Being Friends After The Breakup" -- Can you? Should you? Will you? Will he? Upside -- great bond formed -- Downside -- get him/her outta my life
"Exploring Mutual Interests -- Beyond The Bedroom" -- sex is important -- but you don't stay in the bed all day -- ok somedays you do. But what bonds you besides sex?
"Boundaries -- Setting Them Up So That They Work" -- Never ask your mate to do something, or don't do something you won't do yourself.
"What Turned Me On At First, Now Turns Me Off" -- the things that first attract us to the other person off become the biggest source of irritation ... how do I deal with this?
"I Hate His Ex -- But He/She Likes Me" -- have fun with this!
"The In-Laws Are From Hell"
"His/Her Kids Are Awesome -- Some Of The Time" -- Who hands out discipline? Will they pay attention?
"Sick Of Being Fifth Behind Work, Hobbies, Friends, Sports" -- WOW, whatta field day!
Can love happen in only a short amount time of knowing someone?
My mental bank account.
Okay, there is a list. Pick one and I'll write about it. I'll get an email sent to my personal email address if you respond. Please know responses do not get posted automatically until I approve them. See blog about "I'm Moving" under the June 2010 edition.
Until Next Time,
Nikki
I have a list of topics I want to discuss in my Blog. I'm not sure which one I want to start with so, Here's YOUR chance to tell ME what you'd like me to write about.
"Being Friends After The Breakup" -- Can you? Should you? Will you? Will he? Upside -- great bond formed -- Downside -- get him/her outta my life
"Exploring Mutual Interests -- Beyond The Bedroom" -- sex is important -- but you don't stay in the bed all day -- ok somedays you do. But what bonds you besides sex?
"Boundaries -- Setting Them Up So That They Work" -- Never ask your mate to do something, or don't do something you won't do yourself.
"What Turned Me On At First, Now Turns Me Off" -- the things that first attract us to the other person off become the biggest source of irritation ... how do I deal with this?
"I Hate His Ex -- But He/She Likes Me" -- have fun with this!
"The In-Laws Are From Hell"
"His/Her Kids Are Awesome -- Some Of The Time" -- Who hands out discipline? Will they pay attention?
"Sick Of Being Fifth Behind Work, Hobbies, Friends, Sports" -- WOW, whatta field day!
Can love happen in only a short amount time of knowing someone?
My mental bank account.
Okay, there is a list. Pick one and I'll write about it. I'll get an email sent to my personal email address if you respond. Please know responses do not get posted automatically until I approve them. See blog about "I'm Moving" under the June 2010 edition.
Until Next Time,
Nikki
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
On With Regis And Kelly Live
You'll need my information to nominate me. If they ask for a picture (which they may) Please feel free to use the one inthis blog.
So, here is the information you'll need to nominate me. Also, you can nominate me once a day!!
Name: Nikki Landry
Station Call Letters: WIAD
City: Washington, DC
Station website: www.947freshfm.com
Then it will ask why would you like to nominate me, please be kind and awesome!!! I want to win this!
Here's the website: http://bventertainment.go.com/tv/buenavista/regisandkelly
/contests/cohostsearch10/index.html
Hurry, Voting ends by July 16th 2010.
Thank you so much.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
June 22, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Life ain't always beautiful
Life ain't always beautiful,Sometimes it's just plain hard Life can knock you down, it can break your heart Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day But the struggles makes you stronger And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' it sweet time
No,life aint always beautiful Tears will fall sometimes Life aint always beautiful But it's a beautiful ride Life aint always beautiful Some days I miss your smile I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles And I wish for just one minute I could see your pretty face Guess I can dream, but life don't work that way But the struggles makes me stronger And the changes make me wise And happiness has its own way of takin' its sweet time
No, life ain't always beautiful But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life ain't always beautiful But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride
GA
You think you're on your way And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day But the struggles makes you stronger And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' it sweet time
No,life aint always beautiful Tears will fall sometimes Life aint always beautiful But it's a beautiful ride Life aint always beautiful Some days I miss your smile I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles And I wish for just one minute I could see your pretty face Guess I can dream, but life don't work that way But the struggles makes me stronger And the changes make me wise And happiness has its own way of takin' its sweet time
No, life ain't always beautiful But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life ain't always beautiful But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride
GA
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
I Have A New radio Station of My Own Now!!
Welcome to Nikki Landry Live! I'm a Major Market (Top 5 ranked in the US) on air personality. This is my own show where it's completely interactive with YOU! If you have a request or just wanna call in and chat you can do that. I believe in true radio fun. This is where you can listen live and enjoy the elements I have on my show. You'll hear great content (current news), celebrity interviews, funny topics, such as an element called "Dick of the Day" (this is where you get to write in or phone in that one person who really made you mad today) and if they truly are a Dick for doing what they did, then they win the Dick of the Day award. I also have a show called "Country Fastball" which is hosted by baseballs' most famous players.
I have a program called "Coffee talk With Nikki" which features unedited phones calls from family/freinds and listeners. You never know what you may hear, but feel free to ease drop in! Don't forget about our "Classic Country Corner" if you love the classic country hits you'll find them here too. Be sure to check the schedule on my radio stations website. My show is currently ranked Top 4 in it's Genre on Live365...find out why people are talking about THIS show.
Enjoy the ride...because it can get bumpy at times!
To go to my site you can click here: http://www.live365.com/stations/nikkilandry
Welcome to the show!
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
I have a program called "Coffee talk With Nikki" which features unedited phones calls from family/freinds and listeners. You never know what you may hear, but feel free to ease drop in! Don't forget about our "Classic Country Corner" if you love the classic country hits you'll find them here too. Be sure to check the schedule on my radio stations website. My show is currently ranked Top 4 in it's Genre on Live365...find out why people are talking about THIS show.
Enjoy the ride...because it can get bumpy at times!
To go to my site you can click here: http://www.live365.com/stations/nikkilandry
Welcome to the show!
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Saturday, November 28, 2009
I Solemnly Swear.
This is the first 6 chapters of my book. There are 22 chapters in all and are currently being edited. I couldn't wait to share my story with you, so I've released the first 6 chapters. Although the places in my book are real, the story itself is fictional. I'm an advit writer and I love to write as much as I can.
I started writing this book back in 1992. I wrote for many years following, however I put it down and did not write in it for about 17 years. I'm not sure what other writers go through, but for me, I had a hard time letting go of my characters in my book. It's amazing how you can become so attached to them as a writer and as a reader.
People often ask my why I choose to write a book, and why I choose to write about a forbidden love affair in the military no less. I guess part of the book has some truth to it, but the main character was not married in real life. Another part of the book is where Melissa (the other main character) steals her roommates' birth certificate to enlist into the Air Force. I can assure you, I never stole anyone's birth certificate to enlist into the Air Force. I enlisted on my own birth given name. The book is dedicated to "Keith..for not being afraid, when I was."
I hope you enjoy reading the first 6 chapters and if you are, when you make a purchase for it, you will receive the remaining 16 chapters free. You will have to provide me your order number and name so I can send you the remaining chapters free.
Here is a little outline of what you expect inside the whole book. Enjoy!
Melissa Bradshaw attends college and finds who she believes is her “soul mate” Captain Richard Clarrion. Her real name is Karen Sampson and she stole her roommates Birth Certificate to change her name to Melissa Bradshaw and enlists into the United States Air Force to find Captain Richard Clarrion. He is married to Susan with 2 kids. He is a well established decorated officer in the Air Force. He ends up having a forbidden affair with Melissa Bradshaw. Little does he know they have more in common than he thought. One of those things they have in common is the prosecuting Attorney Captain Miles.
One night, Richards wife Susan discovers a voice mail left by Melissa to Richard. Susan calls Richard to get up while he's a sleep in their bedroom and he mumbles the words “Melissa?” and his wife asks “What did you say honey?” he wipes his eyes and says “What?” She says “You called me Melissa” and he says “No, I said I missed ya."...
To order my book, just click to the upper left hand side on this page and you'll see it.
Until Next time,
Much Love,
Nikki
I started writing this book back in 1992. I wrote for many years following, however I put it down and did not write in it for about 17 years. I'm not sure what other writers go through, but for me, I had a hard time letting go of my characters in my book. It's amazing how you can become so attached to them as a writer and as a reader.
People often ask my why I choose to write a book, and why I choose to write about a forbidden love affair in the military no less. I guess part of the book has some truth to it, but the main character was not married in real life. Another part of the book is where Melissa (the other main character) steals her roommates' birth certificate to enlist into the Air Force. I can assure you, I never stole anyone's birth certificate to enlist into the Air Force. I enlisted on my own birth given name. The book is dedicated to "Keith..for not being afraid, when I was."
I hope you enjoy reading the first 6 chapters and if you are, when you make a purchase for it, you will receive the remaining 16 chapters free. You will have to provide me your order number and name so I can send you the remaining chapters free.
Here is a little outline of what you expect inside the whole book. Enjoy!
Melissa Bradshaw attends college and finds who she believes is her “soul mate” Captain Richard Clarrion. Her real name is Karen Sampson and she stole her roommates Birth Certificate to change her name to Melissa Bradshaw and enlists into the United States Air Force to find Captain Richard Clarrion. He is married to Susan with 2 kids. He is a well established decorated officer in the Air Force. He ends up having a forbidden affair with Melissa Bradshaw. Little does he know they have more in common than he thought. One of those things they have in common is the prosecuting Attorney Captain Miles.
One night, Richards wife Susan discovers a voice mail left by Melissa to Richard. Susan calls Richard to get up while he's a sleep in their bedroom and he mumbles the words “Melissa?” and his wife asks “What did you say honey?” he wipes his eyes and says “What?” She says “You called me Melissa” and he says “No, I said I missed ya."...
To order my book, just click to the upper left hand side on this page and you'll see it.
Until Next time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Thursday, June 11, 2009
A Day At The Improv
I wasn't sure what to write about today. So I did what ever other human would do, I asked people to throw me a subject and I would Blog about it. I asked my friends on "Facebook" to throw me the subject so the first one I got was: From: Brian Battles who asked "Who buried those Easter Island statues up to their necks?" You never know what you're going to get when you ask such an open ended question.
Considering I have no idea what Brian is talking about, this should be fun to try to Blog about. Let's see "Who buried those Easter Island statues up to their necks?" Since I have never been to Easter Island and have never seen any of their statues I figured I would "Google" Easter Island. Here's what I found in Wikipedia. "Easter Island is famous for its monumental statues, called moai (pronounced /ˈmoʊ.аɪ/), created by the Rapanui people". The statues are actually complete torsos, the figures kneeling on bent knees with their hands over their stomach. Some upright moai have become buried up to their necks by shifting soils. Sometimes I feel like I'm buried up to my neck in stuff. Can't imagine to ALWAYS having to live like that as these statues do. Thanks for your topic Brian.
Onto the next Improv question submitted by: Michele Paiva "waiting in lines, but in a good way (people often complain, but is it so bad?)"
To me waiting in line isn't always a bad thing. So many times when I'm standing in lines it gives me a chance to really do what I want to with my time. For instance, if I want time to go through in my head what I need to do for the day, I can do that and not be bothered (most of the time). Standing in line also gives me an opportunity to meet new people. Sometimes I just make a comment like "Seems like everyone is out today" normally that strikes up a conversation with the person next to me. I can honestly say, I've never made a date with anyone standing in line while I was waiting. Have you? Another thing I like to do while standing in line is people watch. Who doesn't like to people watch? It's amazing at the stuff people do in public. One time while I was standing in line, I had a little kid (about 6 years old) come right up and hit me on my leg. His mom didn't do anything about it, she just told him to get back to where she was. What would have you done if you were me? Thanks Michele for your Improv subject.
Considering I have no idea what Brian is talking about, this should be fun to try to Blog about. Let's see "Who buried those Easter Island statues up to their necks?" Since I have never been to Easter Island and have never seen any of their statues I figured I would "Google" Easter Island. Here's what I found in Wikipedia. "Easter Island is famous for its monumental statues, called moai (pronounced /ˈmoʊ.аɪ/), created by the Rapanui people". The statues are actually complete torsos, the figures kneeling on bent knees with their hands over their stomach. Some upright moai have become buried up to their necks by shifting soils. Sometimes I feel like I'm buried up to my neck in stuff. Can't imagine to ALWAYS having to live like that as these statues do. Thanks for your topic Brian.
Onto the next Improv question submitted by: Michele Paiva "waiting in lines, but in a good way (people often complain, but is it so bad?)"
To me waiting in line isn't always a bad thing. So many times when I'm standing in lines it gives me a chance to really do what I want to with my time. For instance, if I want time to go through in my head what I need to do for the day, I can do that and not be bothered (most of the time). Standing in line also gives me an opportunity to meet new people. Sometimes I just make a comment like "Seems like everyone is out today" normally that strikes up a conversation with the person next to me. I can honestly say, I've never made a date with anyone standing in line while I was waiting. Have you? Another thing I like to do while standing in line is people watch. Who doesn't like to people watch? It's amazing at the stuff people do in public. One time while I was standing in line, I had a little kid (about 6 years old) come right up and hit me on my leg. His mom didn't do anything about it, she just told him to get back to where she was. What would have you done if you were me? Thanks Michele for your Improv subject.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Murder On Music Row
Here's an article recently posted on Newsweek. Please fee free to leave your comments.
In the old days, there were many, many songs like "Banks of the Ohio," in which a man stabs his girlfriend and heads down to the river, where he "threw her in to drown, and … watched her as she floated down." (Dirty secret: folksy, gosh-darny traditional country songs have violence that would make 50 Cent blush.) Today's producers are just giving people what they want, navigating the market as best they can. It's a business, after all. Today's suburban music buyers don't labor in coal mines or cheat on their wives. Well, they don't work in coal mines, anyway. Songwriters and hit makers write about what they know, just as their forefathers did, except now what they know is driving the kids to Target in the minivan, or staying at home because they're unemployed.
I don't like country music, but I don't denigrate those who do. And for the people who do like country music, denigrate means "put down."
—Bob Newhart
In what the reactionary me considers the good old days of Nashville, Johnny Cash "shot a man in Reno just to watch him die." In 1968's "Mama Tried," Merle Haggard "turned 21 in prison doin' life without parole." George Jones once sang, "If drinkin' don't kill me, her memory will" and lived what he sang, routinely missing concerts and earning the nickname "No Show" Jones. This was the country music that country people like me listened to when I was growing up in rural Virginia.
Here's what I hear on the radio today when I'm driving my Jeep through the streets of Washington, D.C.: songs like "Watching You," which tells the gritty tale of a little boy making a mess of his McDonald's Happy Meal after his daddy hits the brakes too hard ("His fries went a-flyin' and his orange drink covered his lap"). It makes me turn bright red with shame every time it comes on, which is often, because it was Billboard's No. 1 country song of the year in 2007. The group Lonestar had a hit not too long ago with these hard-core lyrics: "There's a carrot top who can barely walk, with a sippy cup of milk." It had another big song called "Mr. Mom.
I could go on, but you can see where I'm going with this. Country music just ain't what it used to be. That might be good or bad, depending on your outlook, but it's bad. When CBS airs the 44th Annual Academy of Country Music Awards this Sunday from Las Vegas, the parade of hot bodies onstage will rival the Miss America contest. If past concert appearances are any indication, the nominees for vocalist of the year will be dressed in skintight, revealing tops, some with long, flowing blond hair and deep golden tans.
And that's just the men. Miranda and Heidi and Taylor and Carrie—all four gorgeous, all four blond, all four real names, all incredibly talented—will be vying for the top female prize. There are still some throwbacks, however. Somehow, Lee Ann Womack, also beautiful, also sometimes blond, managed to become the fifth nominee, even though she actually sings country music and is more than twice the age of 19-year-old Taylor Swift, today's Nashville "it" girl.
How did we get to this strange, alien land where there's a country-awards show that honors pop-music teeny-boppers and a lot of the songs aren't really country by even the stretchiest definition? It didn't happen overnight. Ever since the Carter Family made their famous Bristol recordings in 1927, people have been arguing about what country music is, was and should be. Traditionalists got bent out of shape in 1962 when Ray Charles recorded "Modern Sounds in Country and Western Music," which took the genre and transformed it into something more approachable for a mass audience. Now it's considered a groundbreaking classic.
Willie and Waylon ushered in a more hard-core "outlaw" country in the late '70s, but then in 1980, John Travolta rode into town on a mechanical bull in "Urban Cowboy," and traditional country music took another hit. And of course there was the great "folk scare" of the 1960s, which threatened to kill off traditional bluegrass. But the truth is, bluegrass had been around for only about 20 years at the time.
Then the 1990s brought us Garth Brooks, more commonly known as just Garth, who I originally thought was all hat and no cattle, surely the final nail in the honky-tonk coffin. His pop-sounding megahits and his wacky flying over arena stages on a wire in his way-too-tight Wranglers made my skin crawl. Almost two decades later, and by today's Rascal Flatts-ian standards, I consider him almost a modern-day Hank Williams.
It hasn't been a straightforward march toward bubblegum pop, though. Over the years, the so-called neotraditionalists have had their moments: singers like John Anderson, bluegrass crossover Ricky Skaggs and the Honky-Tonk Man, Dwight Yoakam, managed to sell millions of records. [Editor's note: Records are big, flat, round things made out of vinyl that you used to put on something called a "record player," and music came out when you put a needle on it. Seriously, ask your dad.] In 2000, the soundtrack for the Coen Brothers movie "O Brother, Where Art Thou?" was a runaway hit, won a Grammy and went to No. 1. It's sold more than 7 million copies since, and has brought late-in-life fame to the most traditional of mountain-music artists, Virginia's Ralph Stanley.
As the years have passed, I've learned to relax about the changes in the music I love. I'm past the anger and denial, and fully in the acceptance stage. I could never in my lifetime listen to all the traditional country recordings that already exist, so who cares if only a handful of alt-country types are still at it? Besides, I knew my habit of mindlessly clinging to the past was finally licked last year when even Merle Haggard, he of the late-1960s anti-hippie anthem "Okie From Muskogee," wrote a campaign song for Hillary Clinton: "Let's Put a Woman in Charge." Uncle! Uncle!
In the old days, there were many, many songs like "Banks of the Ohio," in which a man stabs his girlfriend and heads down to the river, where he "threw her in to drown, and … watched her as she floated down." (Dirty secret: folksy, gosh-darny traditional country songs have violence that would make 50 Cent blush.) Today's producers are just giving people what they want, navigating the market as best they can. It's a business, after all. Today's suburban music buyers don't labor in coal mines or cheat on their wives. Well, they don't work in coal mines, anyway. Songwriters and hit makers write about what they know, just as their forefathers did, except now what they know is driving the kids to Target in the minivan, or staying at home because they're unemployed.
So maybe country sounds and lyrics veering a little toward spit-polished pop music aren't a sign of the end of the world, but something gritty and real has been lost. They borrow the vernacular of country music, the genuineness and masculinity of that hard-knock life, but they morph it into something that's barely recognizable. The rough edges and authenticity have been sanded off. As the great songwriter Larry Cordle wrote about this very subject in his hit "Murder on Music Row," "They said no one would buy them old drinkin' and cheatin' songs. Well, there ain't no justice in it, and the hard facts are cold."
I couldn't agree more. But to put it in terms Lonestar might understand, at some point, we all have to put on our big-boy pants and move on. The traditional stuff is still out there, if you take the time to look. How can you blame Nashville? Even a legend like George Jones, 77, the man Frank Sinatra allegedly called "the second-best singer in America," played to an arena that was three-quarters empty last week in the Virginia suburbs. The voice that gave us arguably the greatest country song of all time, "He Stopped Loving Her Today," went on gallantly with the show. In the so-called good old days, he might not have shown up at all.
© 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Twitter Me Tuesday!
Okay, So I joined Twitter yesterday. I have no idea what it is all about and how it's different/better than Facebook. I have to admit though, I was skeptical about Facebook in the beginning because I had Myspace. Now, I am addicted to Facebook.
So, if you can explain to me why in the World I need Twitter, please do so. I don't understand the whole following thing and how it works in there. If you get a chance, "follow me". I've chosen a few people to "follow" but really I don't know who they are or why I even chose to follow them, I guess they had big important names like CNN.
Okay, let's Twitter and then we'll head over to Facebook and back to Myspace and find out what everyone is doing, because afterall we REALLY do care.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
PS. Not sure how to find my "Twitter" address but my last name is Landry.
So, if you can explain to me why in the World I need Twitter, please do so. I don't understand the whole following thing and how it works in there. If you get a chance, "follow me". I've chosen a few people to "follow" but really I don't know who they are or why I even chose to follow them, I guess they had big important names like CNN.
Okay, let's Twitter and then we'll head over to Facebook and back to Myspace and find out what everyone is doing, because afterall we REALLY do care.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
PS. Not sure how to find my "Twitter" address but my last name is Landry.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Long Ago....and So Far Away...Love Remembers
Doesn't seem possible ten years ago this month I was standing in the kitchen making dinner for 5 people. Three kids, a man and myself. We lived in Rome, NY then we moved to Wichita, KS. Six years later and 1 dog later we ended our relationship. Not really sure to this today why it all ended. I guess maybe because I was young. I was 25 when we met, he was 36. I thought I had it all. A ready made family, 3 great kids, a beautiful house, and well established loving man. I guess after the move to Wichita, KS I realized maybe perhaps I got in too deep over my head. Taking on more than I could handle. Don't get me wrong, we had some of the best days of my life. Our holidays always were so warm and homey. I remember I would take off work 5 days prior to the holiday (mainly Thanksgiving and Christmas) and I would spend all day, and I mean ALL day just baking. The house would be surrounded with cookies, buttermilk pies, pumpkin pies, apple pies, you name it..I baked it. We both were in the Air Force at the time so we had steady jobs, money was never an issue with us. I guess looking back now, the issue was ME. Me trying to find myself. I needed to explore the world and be on my own to prove to myself that I didn't need anyone to take care of me. I moved out and headed East where I got transferred to the Pentagon to work. The kids would call me for Mother's day and wish me a happy mother's day. Always made me wonder if I made the right decision to leave in the first place. Although [he] and I didn't keep too much in contact throughout the years we were broken up, I knew in my heart that one day we would be back together...I just needed to "find myself".
After many moves from Washington, DC to Virginia, to Pennsylvania, back to Virginia, on to Rochester, NY, on to Sacramento, Ca, to here San Francisco, Ca I think I may have finally "found myself". Not too long ago, as you know I was in a long distance relationship which at the time I felt was my whole life. When in fact, what I've learned now was that was only "a part of my life".
For some reason, not sure what, I decided to call my my very distant past and reach out. Not knowing what would happen or if even he would talk to me again, I took the chance and to my surprise he was single as I was. Both of us getting over a relationship many months ago. Strange how the heart knows no time. Our conversation was just like it used to be when we first dating, it was almost like we never left each other...and who's to say if we ever really did.
People tell me that "you broke up for a reason, let it go, move on". Now, I can say "I have moved on, I've moved on to a life which I don't think I ever should have left." Is it possible to "re-find" love after so many years have passed by? I know one thing now, that I'm happy we re-found each other and to me it doesn't seem like it was so "long ago...and so far away" and maybe there are things we may have forgotten about our life then, I know in our hearts...Love Remembers.
PS. Have you kindled love after so many years? Share your story, write in the comments block.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Dear Jane,
For those of you who may not know the play on words with the subject here I will explain it to you and then you can read my 'Dear Jane" letter. According to Michael Quinion who writes on International English from a British Viewpoint on World Wide Words he states A Dear John letter is 'conventionally a letter from a woman to a boyfriend or husband saying that all is over between them, usually because the woman has found somebody else. A much more recent phrase that reflects today’s sexual equality is Dear Jane letter.'
So this blog is not necessarily that I have found someone else but the fact that I think every single girl or anyone going through or has gone through a break up should write to themselves. If you write one, include things you have given up or made changes to since "then".
So with that.........here's my letter to myself. I'd love to read yours if you chose to write one, besides it's good for you!
Dear Jane,
This letter is to inform you that I found someone else. The person I have found you may not know. This person I am talking about is ME. Although we have had some great times together in the past and shared many laughs, I believe it is in our best interest if we no longer see each other. I have found some of your old clothing which I have decided to donate to charity. I also have found old letters you never mailed to people which I shredded. I changed the cookbooks in your house you used to use and replaced them with health food recipes. I also threw out all your spray deodorants and replaced them with stick ones. Oh, and the phone numbers of old friends who haven't bothered to call you in years? I erased those from your phone as well (if they want to talk to you they can call you). In regards to your past relationship, don't bother looking for that piece of memoir you were saving because that is hidden away (which you will never find).
With this said I have called your neighbor Mr. Shiraz and told him of my break up with you and immediately he came to my rescue along with your female friend Misty. Tonight we both hung out and they brought back memories of you so I have decided to not be friends with them either. I will let you know your two cousins hog an daz have been very supportive in my break up with you. Each night we sit, talk and think about other things besides you. They have become my "comfort food" if you will. I know at times you didn't think I was sexy enough but now with the help of your cousin Jim Beam and playing Justin Timberlake over and over, I now know that I am about to bring sexy back!
I know how hard this must be for you to end this relationship so quickly, but now it is time I get my life back and start doing things that a single girl my age should be doing. I appreciate all the great times we shared in the past, but I must say that I will be happier now living the life I have always wanted and never wanted to settle for, so Jane, with all this said I must say farewell to you.
So in my farewell, I have to say thanks for the good times my Dear Jane.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
Black And White With a Touch Of Grey
Recently, I'm learning that maybe not everything IS black and white. Today as I was walking down 4th and Mission on my way to Denny's for breakfast, I noticed a homeless man on the side walk. He was just standing there and smiled at me when I passed him by. I smiled back and he blushed. I couldn't really tell if he was blushing as his face was incredibly dirty. I know one thing for sure; he was definitely dressed warmer than I. As I walked by him I asked myself "I wonder how he sees the world?" It must be hard for someone like that not knowing where he’ll get his next meal, but he has hope and he doesn't give up. If he saw the world in black and white as I once did, he would have given up on life and who knows he wouldn't have been the subject of my blog tonight.
I often wonder what is it we are meant to do with our lives. What is our purpose here and how do we help? I don't imagine the homeless man was set here to be homeless. I know somewhere deep down inside me, he has a purpose, and he may even be some-one's father or son; and to me that’s a big enough purpose in life by itself. I'm sure he has contributed to society at one time in his life.
I remember being a student in Syracuse University and one of my close professors went completely nuts. He became homeless. I saw him one day on the streets and he didn't recognize me, he looked right through me as if I wasn't there and held out his hand and repeatedly kept asking “Got any change, got any spare change?" A well educated man with a PHD now is a burden on society. How does that happen? What is it we can learn from him? The funny thing is, he taught sociology. Now people study HIM.
I wonder what color HIS world is? I don't suppose it's black and white or if it is, it may have a touch of grey.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
The "Good" Got The "Best" Of Me
Feelings can be turned off and on like a faucet when you're in a relationship. Although they may not be permanent we sometimes tend to "turn them" off for the sake of saving our hearts. I haven't spoken to Mike since last Thursday morning when I got those text messages from him. I will tell you that day on the air was probably one of the hardest days I had to broadcast. No-one knew I was hurting for the exception on Ken who is our morning show host. I've known Ken for about 7 years now and it's great to work with him again. There's not much someone can do to help someone who is going through a rough time in relationships but to offer a hug, and sometimes that's all you need at that moment.
I was convinced that I needed to move on with my life based on the text messages I got from Mike on Thursday. So, I did just that, I didn't call him, didn't text him, didn't send him emails, I just left him alone. I was feeling pretty good about being in charge of my emotions and having the discipline not to contact him. This weekend I did things, cleaned my house inside and out, did laundry,groomed the dogs,I did whatever I needed to do to get my mind off of Mike. Thanks to the support of my family I was able to get 'through' the weekend and not think about my relationship or now 'my past relationship'.
Sunday afternoon, I was sitting at my table, eating dinner. I actually ordered out and it was a dinner that Mike and I used to like to eat together. Not sure what made me buy it, maybe I was just craving it and wanted to buy it, no big deal right? As I began to eat my dinner a message appears on my instant message and it's from Mike. It was a simple message that said "Hi..are you doing okay?" Did I smile when it came up? sure, Did I not want to answer him? Sure, but did I answer him? you bet. It was a light hearted conversation about movies and wine, nothing about us was said. I know he's not coping well with what's going on and to be honest a part of me is still hurting. I thought I was doing "good" with trying to get over him, but when we started chatting again, I found myself purposely keeping open my instant messenger in hopes he might want to chat again. I guess, you could say "i was doing "good" before the chat, and now....I think my "good" has gotten the best of me.
Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki
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